Ello sparkles!!!So sorry for being such a bad blogger lately. Medical entrance coaching …college…books…exams have later occupied most of my time. The remaining time I indulge in sleeping🙈. Well a girls got to have her beauty sleep right? Besides I look like a dead zombie 99% of the time. DO NOT let the insta feed fool you. But right now I’m having the best relax mee time ever. Chilling by the beach in goa. A road trip that has taken all my troubles away.
Goa is my happy place.
I have been there like 10 times but still when my dad asks me where I want to go I always choose the sea..sand and shore. There’s something about the way the waves come in and go out … about reading a good book by the beach and swimming in the sea that gives me lot of peace. I love to float in the water and think about nothing. Just go blank and switch off for a while. I still remember the first time I felt that. I was 8 years old and we were staying in a fabulous hotel in Goa. I didn’t know how to swim back then but that didn’t stop me from wanting to swim. It was the first vacation we took after my brother’s passing away. A vacation that my family of three desperately needed to fill a void that death had caused.
I went swimming and this old American couple taught me to float on water. They said that if you don’t know how to swim that’s completely ok. All you need to do is think about nothing and the water will do the rest. 10 years later even now when I float thats what I do. Think about nothing else and let the water do the rest. The peace that I get when I am above it all but still in contact with the cool water is beyond words. I have now realised that I could use this even when I’m back home. And no you don’t need a pool to find peace.
In life you might not always know what to do or how to go about. Like me you might not know to swim. But sometimes you need to think about nothing and let life do the rest. We are constantly fighting to win but what if we just take a moment to breathe slowly and then notice that the answer was right in front of us. You might not always know the answer God knows you are not google. But you always know how to get away from it all.
Close your eyes for a little while my sparkles and see how easy it is to float above it all. Just breathe a bit and see if life gives you an answer. It may not solve all your troubles but it will definitely show you a new path to peace
Lots of love
Ello lil sparkles!!Today I realised something really important. Not everyone is gonna like you. Not everyone is gonna love you. Not everyone will want you to shine. And very few people will really contribute to your happiness and inner peace.
To make things much clearer. In a world where COFFEE is loved by almost everyone and runs through 99.9% people’s bloodstream. There are those 0.001% annoying people that despise the heavenly drink. (No offence if you are a tea lover but try coffee. There is a reason why we are so addicted 😝)
So my lil loves if people can hate coffee then surely you can live with 20% of annoying people that don’t get your vibe. They might show how much they hate your presence but remember you are above it all. You are coffee so dark and deadly that you don’t give a flying duck about the haters.
Not everybody likes coffee and not everyone will like you. But you keep shining lil sparkle because there are many people who are madly in love and addicted to you❤️
Lots of love
Ello sparkles!!I’m so sorry for being MIA lately. Physics , Chemistry and Biology were restricting the Literature brain and soul cells from growing. Right now I’m having the time of my life relaxing on a quick weekend getaway. Tomorrow I get back to reality which is terrifying.
I’ll get back to 14 hours work days … 4 hours of sleep…and 4000 pages of knowledge. Knowledge that won’t really help me to solve real life problems. The real deal ..the actual shit. It may solve monetary issues but in no way is knowing how Electrons move when subjected to potential difference gonna help me. What I really need to learn is how to use my potential to actually create a difference in the time of a crisis.
I need to be taught that I’m strong..to deal with anything life throws at me. I need to be educated on how to never be dishonest about my flaws or my insecurities. I need to understand that I am human and I’ll make mistakes but in the end life will not end. It will always give me a second chance to showcase my sparkle.
I can’t try and change our education system. After all that I have said I’ll still go back and give it my 99% to learn that near useless information to the best of my ability. But I CAN ask you to have a little faith in yourself. And to learn the lessons that life will teach you. To believe in yourself that if you can learn Physics and Chemistry or History and Accounting then you can definitely survive high school , arguments, jealousy, misunderstandings and hate. The only person who deserves the hate is Newton for teaching us that gravity holds us to the earth but not teaching us how we should hold on to others😂.
Remember you are above it all. And all your efforts need not be just to come first in school. Try to come in the list of the best thousands you know.
Lots of love
Do you ever feel like a bottle of pop ? Like you would explode any minute. Your gathering momentum from all the little things that everyone kept telling you and then suddenly one domino sets it motion. You explode with great velocity making a mess and causing a catastrophe.
I feel that when people I love or want to impress don't even acknowledge my efforts. I'm not asking you to praise me but I'm definitely not inviting you to insult me. Tell me that I'll never amount to anything or that all my work is for nothing.
Has Anyone told you that you don't make any sacrifices? That you haven't amounted to anything your whole life. Well my little sparklers let's get this straight. We all shine with our own light. And the ones who can't see this bright shine are simply blind aren't they ?
Well I'm telling you they are.
Someone truly said that Words cut deeper than a knife. Especially when that knife is held by someone who love or who you want to be loved by.
We humans no matter how tough we pretend to be need attention and love. Some need little while others come with a higher maintenance. The real star is the one who gives light to others but never steals someone else's show. Let's be successful together shall we ?
My little hearts don't let anyone tell you your worthless. That you are not a worthy cause. Your not a problem your heart is the solution to mine ❤
Those little things that they say to make you explode. To make you cry are little bubbles of Carbon Dioxide. And in order to stay away from bursting out you need to break your bubble a bit. Take in a deep breath in of oxygen. Tell yourself that they are creating a mirage of things that your not and the oasis is something you need to create by telling yourself that you are perfect.
I love u
Ello lil sparkles!
Lately theres soo much change going on. Seasons are changing….Trends are changing…Life is changing …People are changing. I have significantly changed when it comes to my education in the past one month. I have never put this much effort into anything ever.
Its almost if A nerd ghost has entered into me 😂. My parents love the ghost…my friends are threatened by it and question my sanity when I go on about how productive I have been. My professors are glad that the ghost kicked in before its too late. I on the other hand am scared that physics, biology and chemistry have taken over my bloodstream.
After putting in so much effort I expect things to be all sugar and nice. But people still manage to find flaws. I cried my heart out when somebody tried to bring me down. The question I kept asking was how can someone do this to me when I’m giving it my all? Well I found an answer
Maybe its too much chemistry that made me think that we all are composed of different compounds. Some people have more protein ..in them while other people have lots of sugar in their blood. But some people are filled with plain Acid. Similarly emotionally we all are made of different feelings. While you might me a happy soul the person next to you might be a complete cry baby. While you are super talkative the person next to you might be a wallflower.
No matter how hard you try my little sparkles not everybody will like seeing you shine. Similarly no matter how much pain and effort you put in there will always be people who will try to concentrate on your flaws. It’s not something you did that made them go all sour and acidic its just the way they are composed.
I think my chemistry professor will love this post more than anyone 😂(LOL).
So my loves don’t let the acid hamper your efforts. You deserve to shine and your hard work should be recognised. Bleed for your goals and not trying to tear yourself to fit in.
Lots of love
Ello sparkles !!When I was little every day was a great day. I woke up late ….studied if I wanted to …ate what I want …got what I wanted. Being the first girl in the family came with its privileges. A few years after that my biggest problem was not doing my homework or not liking what’s for lunch. Fast forward a bit and then being teased was the trouble of the day. Then I lost my brother in an accident and things were mundane.
A few years later NOW my biggest problems are getting the best grades in a test, the weights on the scale …what my friends think about me … and constantly trying to be my best. But the conclusion is that the problems changed everyday , every month , every year. And I’m still alive
I’m still breathing and 90% of my days are happy days. There are days when I feel in the dumps. When everything about everyone seems wrong but if I could get through all of it for 17 years surely I could do so for the rest of my life ,right ?
I cannot believe that it took me so long to realise that it was OK to have a bad day. It was OK to feel completely useless. It was OK to fight with the people you love cause they are not going anywhere.
Anxiety…Jitters and tears were a part of life and getting it out once in a while is OK. There will be days when I feel so good. In my own little corner but the next day might be the absolute worst. And that was OK
So next time when you have a bad day …when anxiety strikes or panic breaks remember that You are OK. You are still alive after so many trials so this new problem is just an older one with a changed tag.
Having a bad day is a gentle reminder that the sparkle around you is getting over and it’s time for you to surround yourself with some inner sunshine
All the love
Ello lil sparkles !!
All my life I have heard people talk about a physical quantity….you know something that can be measured…calculated…added …defined. But most often this physical quantity is judged. Velocity…distance …time is directly proportional to a lot of things but being a physics student I have never heard that weight is directly proportional to beauty.
Growing up being a chubby kid had always been hard. My friends …mates …colleagues…relatives heck even my parents never really thought that my size was a beautiful one. Family dinners and parties were filled with old people giving me DIY tips or gym numbers. Trainers that had made a difference before.
Even today people keep telling me that I’m curvy , for gods sake I know. I own a mirror and I love the reflection I see. My parents and relatives tell me to eat less or comment on my choices as if not eating a slice of pizza was going to make me happy. Lol
I failed to understand how or why being chubby and curvy when I was 5 and 6 was cute but when I’m 17 it’s obscene. I have tried numerous diets and countless ways but I was never taught to be happy in my own skin. My best friends are really skinny and they are so beautiful for me but they think I’m beautiful too even though I’m a few sizes extra and a few kgs over. I’m not unhealthy I don’t have health issues …then how does being curvy stop me from being beautiful.
I think it’s time for people to stop being crazy about size 0 cause I’m sure you can feel a perfect 💯 even if your a size 10. Last year I lost a few pounds. And I did that cause I thought it would be better for me so for people who asked me if I did it for a guy or if I was disgusted with myself the answer is NO.
If you think you need a change , do it for yourselves cause I think beauty comes in all sizes be it a zero or a hundred. And why should we let numbers define our infinite potential? So let me sparkle in my own size and let my fellow mates breathe in their own body!!
Lots of love