Do you ever feel like a bottle of pop ? Like you would explode any minute. Your gathering momentum from all the little things that everyone kept telling you and then suddenly one domino sets it motion. You explode with great velocity making a mess and causing a catastrophe.
I feel that when people I love or want to impress don't even acknowledge my efforts. I'm not asking you to praise me but I'm definitely not inviting you to insult me. Tell me that I'll never amount to anything or that all my work is for nothing.
Has Anyone told you that you don't make any sacrifices? That you haven't amounted to anything your whole life. Well my little sparklers let's get this straight. We all shine with our own light. And the ones who can't see this bright shine are simply blind aren't they ?
Well I'm telling you they are.
Someone truly said that Words cut deeper than a knife. Especially when that knife is held by someone who love or who you want to be loved by.
We humans no matter how tough we pretend to be need attention and love. Some need little while others come with a higher maintenance. The real star is the one who gives light to others but never steals someone else's show. Let's be successful together shall we ?
My little hearts don't let anyone tell you your worthless. That you are not a worthy cause. Your not a problem your heart is the solution to mine ❤
Those little things that they say to make you explode. To make you cry are little bubbles of Carbon Dioxide. And in order to stay away from bursting out you need to break your bubble a bit. Take in a deep breath in of oxygen. Tell yourself that they are creating a mirage of things that your not and the oasis is something you need to create by telling yourself that you are perfect.
I love u
Ello lil sparkles!!
From my first blogpost when I used to write anonymously upto now when you all know who I am, I have always been honest with you guys.
Whether it was happiness or sorrow I shared it with all of you. So today when I'm scared I don't think its something I have to hide.
My blogs are kind of my personal space where I get to express myself. Sometimes these rants help others which makes me glad and other times it makes me feel less burdened. So today hopefully after writing this blogpost I will feel stronger. Today I'm scared.
I'm scared about what the future holds. I'm scared about turning into an adult. I'm scared thinking about decisions. I'm terrified of what will happen to my career and life. For a person like me who has always seen the brighter side of life and tried to be happy 99% of the time this feeling is foreign. It's something that knocks the air out of me.
But I have started seeing life in a different way. Everyone has a turning point in life. Today I think is mine. I'm never going to stop being the class clown or the most cheerful person around. That's one of my best qualities and I'm never letting it go. But I'm gonna use my fear to create something positive. Something that would make my loved ones proud…more than anything make me feel like I didn't waste my sparkle.
So my lil sparkles it's ok to be scared. I'm saying that because I'm terrified but there's always enough light for us to scrape through. Hopefully I will have you all with me on my journey too❤️
Lots of love
Moving at a speed faster than a walk or never having both legs on the ground is the definition of run by the oxford dictionary. It's something we do everyday. Run to class when we are late …run to feel calm …run from our problems but there's one thing we can't run from Our reflection.
We carry it with ourselves. A mirror, a plain clear glass , still water they keep reminding us of who we are. Who we have become. When I used to wake up and look at myself I never felt content. The shirt was not right or my hair looked too much like Lindsey Lohan on a drunk night. The acne felt like scars and the protruding belly was never helping the cause.
All my life people have told me what I could do to look better. But what if I was content in myself and their unnecessary thoughts made me insecure. What if you love yourself ..your body …your choices because you like being different. If being round is a crime then why do you chastise the skinny ones? If being thin is a sign of weakness how can you determine the strength of the curvy ones?
Isn't the colourful rainbow that I have in my heart more important than the tone I have on my skin. Isn't the size of your soul more important than your waist or thighs ?
I'm at a stage in life now that I am happy and content with how I look. I like the reflection that smiles back at me when I look in the mirror. When people make low digs at my curvy figure or my not so sharp jawline. I laugh with them. Cause honestly if you think how they are judging you it resembles a joke more than an insult.
Now when I look at the mirror I realise that I have finally discovered who I really am. I'm not even close to the perfect supermodel but I'm my own runway superstar.
And trust me learning that has made me more confident. I now know that all these years I was not ignoring a reflective surface I was ignoring myself. I'm more then glad that I realised it at an early age so the rest of my life I won't compare myself to the next person because their reflection will never look like mine. They have their own unique sparkle while my reflection is blinding bright too
Don't let others define the way you look or dress or eat. What a reflective surface shows is how you feel about yourself. It's never too late to start loving yourself and it's never too early to start showing the world how amazing you are
Ello lil sparkles!
Lately theres soo much change going on. Seasons are changing….Trends are changing…Life is changing …People are changing. I have significantly changed when it comes to my education in the past one month. I have never put this much effort into anything ever.
Its almost if A nerd ghost has entered into me 😂. My parents love the ghost…my friends are threatened by it and question my sanity when I go on about how productive I have been. My professors are glad that the ghost kicked in before its too late. I on the other hand am scared that physics, biology and chemistry have taken over my bloodstream.
After putting in so much effort I expect things to be all sugar and nice. But people still manage to find flaws. I cried my heart out when somebody tried to bring me down. The question I kept asking was how can someone do this to me when I’m giving it my all? Well I found an answer
Maybe its too much chemistry that made me think that we all are composed of different compounds. Some people have more protein ..in them while other people have lots of sugar in their blood. But some people are filled with plain Acid. Similarly emotionally we all are made of different feelings. While you might me a happy soul the person next to you might be a complete cry baby. While you are super talkative the person next to you might be a wallflower.
No matter how hard you try my little sparkles not everybody will like seeing you shine. Similarly no matter how much pain and effort you put in there will always be people who will try to concentrate on your flaws. It’s not something you did that made them go all sour and acidic its just the way they are composed.
I think my chemistry professor will love this post more than anyone 😂(LOL).
So my loves don’t let the acid hamper your efforts. You deserve to shine and your hard work should be recognised. Bleed for your goals and not trying to tear yourself to fit in.
Lots of love
Ello sparkles In the seventeen years that I have been alive , I have learned a few things about myself. One of them being that I’m a klutz. I’m a silly soul who is always the cause of laughter if not the source…I’m usually up for a joke..I fall often even when I’m just walking…and I have screwed up a million times.
Right now while writing this blog post with a tissue injury in my arm I have also learned that jumping without any reason in your own house is not safe too. But the thing that I was scared about all my life was not the times I fell or the times I have cried. It has always been if I’ll be able to get up. I was really afraid that someday I’ll royally screw up. Not just my arm or leg but my life. Will I be able to get out of the shadow of my father and be a sprinkle of sparkle by myself?
But now I know I don’t need to try so hard. Like when I fall I always can get back on my feet and take care of myself , the same way I have myself when I mess up. Sometimes we need X-rays to determine the internal damage…medicines to fix the disease. Similarly I have friends to help me estimate the damage and their love to heal me when I break. I’ll never suffer alone because I’ll always have a few gems to rely on.
So now I’m not worried about screwing up my life. I have family, friends and myself to take me through my clumsiness…to never leave me alone and most importantly to believe in myself.
The conclusion is im a proud klutz. I’m not afraid to make mistakes. I’m not scared of screwing up. I have accepted that I will fall often but I do have the strength to get back up. You should too.
So my lil sparkles instead of being scared to mess up …be BOLD and live your life cause there will always be people who you can rely on to help you shine your sparkle.
Lots of love
Ello lil sparkles !!
Worthless a small little world that could rock your entire world. Through the years I have faced a lot of rejection ,been called a lot of names. I’m sure everyone has. But the word worthless some how made the most impact. I felt my heart burn and my body cringe when somebody called me that. Who gave you the power to decide what I’m worth ?
Although the word gives me the creeps and disgusts me , the world never stopped using it. Every now and then somebody would tell me I’m worthless. Somebody would call my friends useless. That still affects me but I have gotten better.
A simple thought that changed my world. The things that cannot be priced are called priceless. So naturally the things , whose worth is so much that it cannot be decided should be called worthless. Doesn’t that change your whole thought process?
Every time someone tells you your worthless. Think about the friend that smiles only because of you. For them you are worth it. Remember the happiness your professor has when you tried to answer a difficult question? For them you are worth it. Most importantly remember the joy you feel when you accomplished something that was little to the world but large to you. You will realise that your worth it.
My little sparkles your so precious that the world cannot decide your price. They are so confused and angry that they can’t put up a number as your value cause your potential is infinite. So don’t let the word worthless dampen your shine cause it means that you are beyond priceless.
Lots of love ,
Ello sparkles !!Today morning I woke up expecting there to be pancakes for breakfast instead of boring plain cereal. Last night I wished the day had been better. Next week I may wish for a calm nights sleep . Now I expect my friends to be next to me. In simpler words these are expectations.
When people have huge expectations from us it feels like a huge deal. When we expect things from others it feels more normal. We all have expectations some little , some large. We all are expected to do certain duties. Live a certain life a certain way.
Trust me being a daughter of a well known father comes with great expectations. I’m expected to be always happy , friendly and kind. And sometimes it can get to you. But to balance it i get to have great experiences too
But I’ll give u a perspective that helps me. Think of a shelf at a certain height. If the shelf is at your height you can easily put an object in. If it’s a bit higher you can tip ur toes to reach it. But if it’s too high there is no point in trying.
You know when to stop trying when you see the height of the shelf. In the same way. People will always have expectations for you. If it’s your cup of tea go for it. Pat yourself cause you did a great job. If it’s a bit demanding give it all your strength. Tip your toes. You will eventually conquer your quests. But if the expectations are set too high ignore it. When you know that it’s set at an unfair height you know that there’s no point in bringing yourself down for it.
We all have different heights. In the same way we all have different capacities, different strengths, varied weaknesses. And expectation that someone has for you comes with a certain bar of potential that they think you have. If you can work hard enough to cross it well and good. But if you can’t, what’s the point in loosing your mind on an expectation that wasn’t sane in the first place.
So give yourself a chance.
Expectations are supposed to make you rise and shine better, not to dull your sparkle. Use it as a fuel to ur rocket and not as an explosive to your dreams
All the love
Dedicated to a great reader and an even closer friend Bliss who wanted me to write on this topic. Thank u for all the support and love sweetie ❤️