Do you ever feel like a bottle of pop ? Like you would explode any minute. Your gathering momentum from all the little things that everyone kept telling you and then suddenly one domino sets it motion. You explode with great velocity making a mess and causing a catastrophe.
I feel that when people I love or want to impress don't even acknowledge my efforts. I'm not asking you to praise me but I'm definitely not inviting you to insult me. Tell me that I'll never amount to anything or that all my work is for nothing.
Has Anyone told you that you don't make any sacrifices? That you haven't amounted to anything your whole life. Well my little sparklers let's get this straight. We all shine with our own light. And the ones who can't see this bright shine are simply blind aren't they ?
Well I'm telling you they are.
Someone truly said that Words cut deeper than a knife. Especially when that knife is held by someone who love or who you want to be loved by.
We humans no matter how tough we pretend to be need attention and love. Some need little while others come with a higher maintenance. The real star is the one who gives light to others but never steals someone else's show. Let's be successful together shall we ?
My little hearts don't let anyone tell you your worthless. That you are not a worthy cause. Your not a problem your heart is the solution to mine ❤
Those little things that they say to make you explode. To make you cry are little bubbles of Carbon Dioxide. And in order to stay away from bursting out you need to break your bubble a bit. Take in a deep breath in of oxygen. Tell yourself that they are creating a mirage of things that your not and the oasis is something you need to create by telling yourself that you are perfect.
I love u
Ello lil sparkles!!
From my first blogpost when I used to write anonymously upto now when you all know who I am, I have always been honest with you guys.
Whether it was happiness or sorrow I shared it with all of you. So today when I'm scared I don't think its something I have to hide.
My blogs are kind of my personal space where I get to express myself. Sometimes these rants help others which makes me glad and other times it makes me feel less burdened. So today hopefully after writing this blogpost I will feel stronger. Today I'm scared.
I'm scared about what the future holds. I'm scared about turning into an adult. I'm scared thinking about decisions. I'm terrified of what will happen to my career and life. For a person like me who has always seen the brighter side of life and tried to be happy 99% of the time this feeling is foreign. It's something that knocks the air out of me.
But I have started seeing life in a different way. Everyone has a turning point in life. Today I think is mine. I'm never going to stop being the class clown or the most cheerful person around. That's one of my best qualities and I'm never letting it go. But I'm gonna use my fear to create something positive. Something that would make my loved ones proud…more than anything make me feel like I didn't waste my sparkle.
So my lil sparkles it's ok to be scared. I'm saying that because I'm terrified but there's always enough light for us to scrape through. Hopefully I will have you all with me on my journey too❤️
Lots of love
Moving at a speed faster than a walk or never having both legs on the ground is the definition of run by the oxford dictionary. It's something we do everyday. Run to class when we are late …run to feel calm …run from our problems but there's one thing we can't run from Our reflection.
We carry it with ourselves. A mirror, a plain clear glass , still water they keep reminding us of who we are. Who we have become. When I used to wake up and look at myself I never felt content. The shirt was not right or my hair looked too much like Lindsey Lohan on a drunk night. The acne felt like scars and the protruding belly was never helping the cause.
All my life people have told me what I could do to look better. But what if I was content in myself and their unnecessary thoughts made me insecure. What if you love yourself ..your body …your choices because you like being different. If being round is a crime then why do you chastise the skinny ones? If being thin is a sign of weakness how can you determine the strength of the curvy ones?
Isn't the colourful rainbow that I have in my heart more important than the tone I have on my skin. Isn't the size of your soul more important than your waist or thighs ?
I'm at a stage in life now that I am happy and content with how I look. I like the reflection that smiles back at me when I look in the mirror. When people make low digs at my curvy figure or my not so sharp jawline. I laugh with them. Cause honestly if you think how they are judging you it resembles a joke more than an insult.
Now when I look at the mirror I realise that I have finally discovered who I really am. I'm not even close to the perfect supermodel but I'm my own runway superstar.
And trust me learning that has made me more confident. I now know that all these years I was not ignoring a reflective surface I was ignoring myself. I'm more then glad that I realised it at an early age so the rest of my life I won't compare myself to the next person because their reflection will never look like mine. They have their own unique sparkle while my reflection is blinding bright too
Don't let others define the way you look or dress or eat. What a reflective surface shows is how you feel about yourself. It's never too late to start loving yourself and it's never too early to start showing the world how amazing you are
Love is a complicated word that can make a lot of things simple. Its unconditional…it’s forgiving…it’s not judgemental….and its more than just mind.
It consumes your soul , your heart your emotions. It can act as a beast but in the end its always a beauty. The best thing about it is that you can love anything and anyone.
I love my parents..I love pizza…I love my best friend…I love my kindergartener teacher as much as I love my stern but yet comforting professors. The sky is the limit. You can define this four letter word into anything that fits your description. Your relationship.
We all will find a love from different people at different instances. I have never found love in a partner because I have never felt the need to look. I have always had enough of love even without having a lover. When I eventually do find him he will be my best friend. We will fight and bicker but in the end we will always remember how our definition is so different from the others. And that will be the memory that heals us back together
But some people who are lucky enough have already found love at some point in their life. It may be long lasting or a day old but that one time it will be special.
You might not share the same relationship with them anymore but you still respect the definition you both so carefully created. And that memory will break out a smile and make you forget all the hatred you ever had.
So chin up my lil sparkles cause you will find your definition with someone or other sometime soon💕💕
Lots of love
Ello lil sparkles!!
Since my last blog post my week has been great if not perfect. Have I had no problems?..Absolutely NOT. Have I had enough sleep?Definitely NOT. Do I feel like a zombie ? Maybe. Have I achieved all my goals ? NOT yet. But I did manage to make my best friend smile. I managed to complete a lot of my physics and chemistry assignments. I made my dad and mom happy because I worked hard. I made my self content because I was super productive at least from my point of view.
For somebody else my little goals might be insignificant. For the next person I must have worked too hard. But for me I just about did enough. In the end of the week I’m better than what I was last week. I know more about rotational motion.. I know that I was the cause of my best friend’s happiness. I definitely contributed my little part to my parents hardwork.
My point being we can never achieve all our goals in a day. Over expectation will only bring in disappointment. Having little goals and sticking to it is just about enough. Knowing that you gave it your all is just about enough. Loving the tenny tinnny happiness that you get when you achieve success is just about enough. Most importantly embracing your unique sparkle thats floating around and understanding how bright you can shine is more than just enough.
So my lil sparkles know how bright you can shine so you don’t burn out. It will take time to reach your maximum potential but it will be all worth it. Achieving little by little till you reach your extreme point is More Than Enough
Lots of love
Ello lil sparkles!
Lately theres soo much change going on. Seasons are changing….Trends are changing…Life is changing …People are changing. I have significantly changed when it comes to my education in the past one month. I have never put this much effort into anything ever.
Its almost if A nerd ghost has entered into me 😂. My parents love the ghost…my friends are threatened by it and question my sanity when I go on about how productive I have been. My professors are glad that the ghost kicked in before its too late. I on the other hand am scared that physics, biology and chemistry have taken over my bloodstream.
After putting in so much effort I expect things to be all sugar and nice. But people still manage to find flaws. I cried my heart out when somebody tried to bring me down. The question I kept asking was how can someone do this to me when I’m giving it my all? Well I found an answer
Maybe its too much chemistry that made me think that we all are composed of different compounds. Some people have more protein ..in them while other people have lots of sugar in their blood. But some people are filled with plain Acid. Similarly emotionally we all are made of different feelings. While you might me a happy soul the person next to you might be a complete cry baby. While you are super talkative the person next to you might be a wallflower.
No matter how hard you try my little sparkles not everybody will like seeing you shine. Similarly no matter how much pain and effort you put in there will always be people who will try to concentrate on your flaws. It’s not something you did that made them go all sour and acidic its just the way they are composed.
I think my chemistry professor will love this post more than anyone 😂(LOL).
So my loves don’t let the acid hamper your efforts. You deserve to shine and your hard work should be recognised. Bleed for your goals and not trying to tear yourself to fit in.
Lots of love
A mother wished her first born was a son
The dad wanted a ruler for his reign
The girl thought the hatred in their eyes was all a part of a game
The winner claiming the throne to the terrain
The prize that she really wanted was to be daddy’s lil girl again
We all are trying to fit into the puzzle called life. Constantly trying to be accepted …to get that special someone’s approval. We change who we really are to get accepted by society..friends and even our family.
Now let me ask you something. The parents that gave birth to you should be able to accept you for who you are. The friends who claim to love you should definitely be able to respect your choices and decisions without asking any questions. The society that displays banners suggesting equality for all should be able to accept you for who you are.
This world will constantly tell to change yourself to fit in. But the real gems are the ones who break their puzzle in their own significant way and showcase their inner sparkle. Do NOT search for people’s approval because who are they to tell you to follow the rulebook. These rules of the society were made by people so they can be broken by people too.
So my lil sparkles exceed your limits and realise that you don’t need to be a part of the game to be the winner. The throne was …is and always will be yours as long as you know where your kingdom lies 💕
Lots of love