Ello sparkles!!!So sorry for being such a bad blogger lately. Medical entrance coaching …college…books…exams have later occupied most of my time. The remaining time I indulge in sleeping🙈. Well a girls got to have her beauty sleep right? Besides I look like a dead zombie 99% of the time. DO NOT let the insta feed fool you. But right now I’m having the best relax mee time ever. Chilling by the beach in goa. A road trip that has taken all my troubles away.
Goa is my happy place.
I have been there like 10 times but still when my dad asks me where I want to go I always choose the sea..sand and shore. There’s something about the way the waves come in and go out … about reading a good book by the beach and swimming in the sea that gives me lot of peace. I love to float in the water and think about nothing. Just go blank and switch off for a while. I still remember the first time I felt that. I was 8 years old and we were staying in a fabulous hotel in Goa. I didn’t know how to swim back then but that didn’t stop me from wanting to swim. It was the first vacation we took after my brother’s passing away. A vacation that my family of three desperately needed to fill a void that death had caused.
I went swimming and this old American couple taught me to float on water. They said that if you don’t know how to swim that’s completely ok. All you need to do is think about nothing and the water will do the rest. 10 years later even now when I float thats what I do. Think about nothing else and let the water do the rest. The peace that I get when I am above it all but still in contact with the cool water is beyond words. I have now realised that I could use this even when I’m back home. And no you don’t need a pool to find peace.
In life you might not always know what to do or how to go about. Like me you might not know to swim. But sometimes you need to think about nothing and let life do the rest. We are constantly fighting to win but what if we just take a moment to breathe slowly and then notice that the answer was right in front of us. You might not always know the answer God knows you are not google. But you always know how to get away from it all.
Close your eyes for a little while my sparkles and see how easy it is to float above it all. Just breathe a bit and see if life gives you an answer. It may not solve all your troubles but it will definitely show you a new path to peace
Lots of love
Ello sparkles!!I’m so sorry for being MIA lately. Physics , Chemistry and Biology were restricting the Literature brain and soul cells from growing. Right now I’m having the time of my life relaxing on a quick weekend getaway. Tomorrow I get back to reality which is terrifying.
I’ll get back to 14 hours work days … 4 hours of sleep…and 4000 pages of knowledge. Knowledge that won’t really help me to solve real life problems. The real deal ..the actual shit. It may solve monetary issues but in no way is knowing how Electrons move when subjected to potential difference gonna help me. What I really need to learn is how to use my potential to actually create a difference in the time of a crisis.
I need to be taught that I’m strong..to deal with anything life throws at me. I need to be educated on how to never be dishonest about my flaws or my insecurities. I need to understand that I am human and I’ll make mistakes but in the end life will not end. It will always give me a second chance to showcase my sparkle.
I can’t try and change our education system. After all that I have said I’ll still go back and give it my 99% to learn that near useless information to the best of my ability. But I CAN ask you to have a little faith in yourself. And to learn the lessons that life will teach you. To believe in yourself that if you can learn Physics and Chemistry or History and Accounting then you can definitely survive high school , arguments, jealousy, misunderstandings and hate. The only person who deserves the hate is Newton for teaching us that gravity holds us to the earth but not teaching us how we should hold on to others😂.
Remember you are above it all. And all your efforts need not be just to come first in school. Try to come in the list of the best thousands you know.
Lots of love
Do you ever feel like a bottle of pop ? Like you would explode any minute. Your gathering momentum from all the little things that everyone kept telling you and then suddenly one domino sets it motion. You explode with great velocity making a mess and causing a catastrophe.
I feel that when people I love or want to impress don't even acknowledge my efforts. I'm not asking you to praise me but I'm definitely not inviting you to insult me. Tell me that I'll never amount to anything or that all my work is for nothing.
Has Anyone told you that you don't make any sacrifices? That you haven't amounted to anything your whole life. Well my little sparklers let's get this straight. We all shine with our own light. And the ones who can't see this bright shine are simply blind aren't they ?
Well I'm telling you they are.
Someone truly said that Words cut deeper than a knife. Especially when that knife is held by someone who love or who you want to be loved by.
We humans no matter how tough we pretend to be need attention and love. Some need little while others come with a higher maintenance. The real star is the one who gives light to others but never steals someone else's show. Let's be successful together shall we ?
My little hearts don't let anyone tell you your worthless. That you are not a worthy cause. Your not a problem your heart is the solution to mine ❤
Those little things that they say to make you explode. To make you cry are little bubbles of Carbon Dioxide. And in order to stay away from bursting out you need to break your bubble a bit. Take in a deep breath in of oxygen. Tell yourself that they are creating a mirage of things that your not and the oasis is something you need to create by telling yourself that you are perfect.
I love u
Ello sparkles In the seventeen years that I have been alive , I have learned a few things about myself. One of them being that I’m a klutz. I’m a silly soul who is always the cause of laughter if not the source…I’m usually up for a joke..I fall often even when I’m just walking…and I have screwed up a million times.
Right now while writing this blog post with a tissue injury in my arm I have also learned that jumping without any reason in your own house is not safe too. But the thing that I was scared about all my life was not the times I fell or the times I have cried. It has always been if I’ll be able to get up. I was really afraid that someday I’ll royally screw up. Not just my arm or leg but my life. Will I be able to get out of the shadow of my father and be a sprinkle of sparkle by myself?
But now I know I don’t need to try so hard. Like when I fall I always can get back on my feet and take care of myself , the same way I have myself when I mess up. Sometimes we need X-rays to determine the internal damage…medicines to fix the disease. Similarly I have friends to help me estimate the damage and their love to heal me when I break. I’ll never suffer alone because I’ll always have a few gems to rely on.
So now I’m not worried about screwing up my life. I have family, friends and myself to take me through my clumsiness…to never leave me alone and most importantly to believe in myself.
The conclusion is im a proud klutz. I’m not afraid to make mistakes. I’m not scared of screwing up. I have accepted that I will fall often but I do have the strength to get back up. You should too.
So my lil sparkles instead of being scared to mess up …be BOLD and live your life cause there will always be people who you can rely on to help you shine your sparkle.
Lots of love