Ello sparkles!!!So sorry for being such a bad blogger lately. Medical entrance coaching …college…books…exams have later occupied most of my time. The remaining time I indulge in sleeping🙈. Well a girls got to have her beauty sleep right? Besides I look like a dead zombie 99% of the time. DO NOT let the insta feed fool you. But right now I’m having the best relax mee time ever. Chilling by the beach in goa. A road trip that has taken all my troubles away.
Goa is my happy place.
I have been there like 10 times but still when my dad asks me where I want to go I always choose the sea..sand and shore. There’s something about the way the waves come in and go out … about reading a good book by the beach and swimming in the sea that gives me lot of peace. I love to float in the water and think about nothing. Just go blank and switch off for a while. I still remember the first time I felt that. I was 8 years old and we were staying in a fabulous hotel in Goa. I didn’t know how to swim back then but that didn’t stop me from wanting to swim. It was the first vacation we took after my brother’s passing away. A vacation that my family of three desperately needed to fill a void that death had caused.
I went swimming and this old American couple taught me to float on water. They said that if you don’t know how to swim that’s completely ok. All you need to do is think about nothing and the water will do the rest. 10 years later even now when I float thats what I do. Think about nothing else and let the water do the rest. The peace that I get when I am above it all but still in contact with the cool water is beyond words. I have now realised that I could use this even when I’m back home. And no you don’t need a pool to find peace.
In life you might not always know what to do or how to go about. Like me you might not know to swim. But sometimes you need to think about nothing and let life do the rest. We are constantly fighting to win but what if we just take a moment to breathe slowly and then notice that the answer was right in front of us. You might not always know the answer God knows you are not google. But you always know how to get away from it all.
Close your eyes for a little while my sparkles and see how easy it is to float above it all. Just breathe a bit and see if life gives you an answer. It may not solve all your troubles but it will definitely show you a new path to peace
Lots of love
Ello sparkles!!I’m so sorry for being MIA lately. Physics , Chemistry and Biology were restricting the Literature brain and soul cells from growing. Right now I’m having the time of my life relaxing on a quick weekend getaway. Tomorrow I get back to reality which is terrifying.
I’ll get back to 14 hours work days … 4 hours of sleep…and 4000 pages of knowledge. Knowledge that won’t really help me to solve real life problems. The real deal ..the actual shit. It may solve monetary issues but in no way is knowing how Electrons move when subjected to potential difference gonna help me. What I really need to learn is how to use my potential to actually create a difference in the time of a crisis.
I need to be taught that I’m strong..to deal with anything life throws at me. I need to be educated on how to never be dishonest about my flaws or my insecurities. I need to understand that I am human and I’ll make mistakes but in the end life will not end. It will always give me a second chance to showcase my sparkle.
I can’t try and change our education system. After all that I have said I’ll still go back and give it my 99% to learn that near useless information to the best of my ability. But I CAN ask you to have a little faith in yourself. And to learn the lessons that life will teach you. To believe in yourself that if you can learn Physics and Chemistry or History and Accounting then you can definitely survive high school , arguments, jealousy, misunderstandings and hate. The only person who deserves the hate is Newton for teaching us that gravity holds us to the earth but not teaching us how we should hold on to others😂.
Remember you are above it all. And all your efforts need not be just to come first in school. Try to come in the list of the best thousands you know.
Lots of love
Do you ever feel like a bottle of pop ? Like you would explode any minute. Your gathering momentum from all the little things that everyone kept telling you and then suddenly one domino sets it motion. You explode with great velocity making a mess and causing a catastrophe.
I feel that when people I love or want to impress don't even acknowledge my efforts. I'm not asking you to praise me but I'm definitely not inviting you to insult me. Tell me that I'll never amount to anything or that all my work is for nothing.
Has Anyone told you that you don't make any sacrifices? That you haven't amounted to anything your whole life. Well my little sparklers let's get this straight. We all shine with our own light. And the ones who can't see this bright shine are simply blind aren't they ?
Well I'm telling you they are.
Someone truly said that Words cut deeper than a knife. Especially when that knife is held by someone who love or who you want to be loved by.
We humans no matter how tough we pretend to be need attention and love. Some need little while others come with a higher maintenance. The real star is the one who gives light to others but never steals someone else's show. Let's be successful together shall we ?
My little hearts don't let anyone tell you your worthless. That you are not a worthy cause. Your not a problem your heart is the solution to mine ❤
Those little things that they say to make you explode. To make you cry are little bubbles of Carbon Dioxide. And in order to stay away from bursting out you need to break your bubble a bit. Take in a deep breath in of oxygen. Tell yourself that they are creating a mirage of things that your not and the oasis is something you need to create by telling yourself that you are perfect.
I love u
Ello lil sparkles!!
From my first blogpost when I used to write anonymously upto now when you all know who I am, I have always been honest with you guys.
Whether it was happiness or sorrow I shared it with all of you. So today when I'm scared I don't think its something I have to hide.
My blogs are kind of my personal space where I get to express myself. Sometimes these rants help others which makes me glad and other times it makes me feel less burdened. So today hopefully after writing this blogpost I will feel stronger. Today I'm scared.
I'm scared about what the future holds. I'm scared about turning into an adult. I'm scared thinking about decisions. I'm terrified of what will happen to my career and life. For a person like me who has always seen the brighter side of life and tried to be happy 99% of the time this feeling is foreign. It's something that knocks the air out of me.
But I have started seeing life in a different way. Everyone has a turning point in life. Today I think is mine. I'm never going to stop being the class clown or the most cheerful person around. That's one of my best qualities and I'm never letting it go. But I'm gonna use my fear to create something positive. Something that would make my loved ones proud…more than anything make me feel like I didn't waste my sparkle.
So my lil sparkles it's ok to be scared. I'm saying that because I'm terrified but there's always enough light for us to scrape through. Hopefully I will have you all with me on my journey too❤️
Lots of love
Moving at a speed faster than a walk or never having both legs on the ground is the definition of run by the oxford dictionary. It's something we do everyday. Run to class when we are late …run to feel calm …run from our problems but there's one thing we can't run from Our reflection.
We carry it with ourselves. A mirror, a plain clear glass , still water they keep reminding us of who we are. Who we have become. When I used to wake up and look at myself I never felt content. The shirt was not right or my hair looked too much like Lindsey Lohan on a drunk night. The acne felt like scars and the protruding belly was never helping the cause.
All my life people have told me what I could do to look better. But what if I was content in myself and their unnecessary thoughts made me insecure. What if you love yourself ..your body …your choices because you like being different. If being round is a crime then why do you chastise the skinny ones? If being thin is a sign of weakness how can you determine the strength of the curvy ones?
Isn't the colourful rainbow that I have in my heart more important than the tone I have on my skin. Isn't the size of your soul more important than your waist or thighs ?
I'm at a stage in life now that I am happy and content with how I look. I like the reflection that smiles back at me when I look in the mirror. When people make low digs at my curvy figure or my not so sharp jawline. I laugh with them. Cause honestly if you think how they are judging you it resembles a joke more than an insult.
Now when I look at the mirror I realise that I have finally discovered who I really am. I'm not even close to the perfect supermodel but I'm my own runway superstar.
And trust me learning that has made me more confident. I now know that all these years I was not ignoring a reflective surface I was ignoring myself. I'm more then glad that I realised it at an early age so the rest of my life I won't compare myself to the next person because their reflection will never look like mine. They have their own unique sparkle while my reflection is blinding bright too
Don't let others define the way you look or dress or eat. What a reflective surface shows is how you feel about yourself. It's never too late to start loving yourself and it's never too early to start showing the world how amazing you are
Love is a complicated word that can make a lot of things simple. Its unconditional…it’s forgiving…it’s not judgemental….and its more than just mind.
It consumes your soul , your heart your emotions. It can act as a beast but in the end its always a beauty. The best thing about it is that you can love anything and anyone.
I love my parents..I love pizza…I love my best friend…I love my kindergartener teacher as much as I love my stern but yet comforting professors. The sky is the limit. You can define this four letter word into anything that fits your description. Your relationship.
We all will find a love from different people at different instances. I have never found love in a partner because I have never felt the need to look. I have always had enough of love even without having a lover. When I eventually do find him he will be my best friend. We will fight and bicker but in the end we will always remember how our definition is so different from the others. And that will be the memory that heals us back together
But some people who are lucky enough have already found love at some point in their life. It may be long lasting or a day old but that one time it will be special.
You might not share the same relationship with them anymore but you still respect the definition you both so carefully created. And that memory will break out a smile and make you forget all the hatred you ever had.
So chin up my lil sparkles cause you will find your definition with someone or other sometime soon💕💕
Lots of love
Ello lil sparkles!!
Since my last blog post my week has been great if not perfect. Have I had no problems?..Absolutely NOT. Have I had enough sleep?Definitely NOT. Do I feel like a zombie ? Maybe. Have I achieved all my goals ? NOT yet. But I did manage to make my best friend smile. I managed to complete a lot of my physics and chemistry assignments. I made my dad and mom happy because I worked hard. I made my self content because I was super productive at least from my point of view.
For somebody else my little goals might be insignificant. For the next person I must have worked too hard. But for me I just about did enough. In the end of the week I’m better than what I was last week. I know more about rotational motion.. I know that I was the cause of my best friend’s happiness. I definitely contributed my little part to my parents hardwork.
My point being we can never achieve all our goals in a day. Over expectation will only bring in disappointment. Having little goals and sticking to it is just about enough. Knowing that you gave it your all is just about enough. Loving the tenny tinnny happiness that you get when you achieve success is just about enough. Most importantly embracing your unique sparkle thats floating around and understanding how bright you can shine is more than just enough.
So my lil sparkles know how bright you can shine so you don’t burn out. It will take time to reach your maximum potential but it will be all worth it. Achieving little by little till you reach your extreme point is More Than Enough
Lots of love